It's been awhile, I know. Not like anyone noticed, I'm using this for therapeutic purposes anyways.
Aidan continues to thrive. We had 2 hospitalizations in March-the first and last week. He also finished the aggressive part of his chemo protocol and began his maintenance. We've only gotten 2 weeks into maintenance and have been on hold because if hospitalizations and low counts. He's growing still, eating incessantly and is all boy. I love him oh so much.
I hit a wall today and realized that it's been one month since Aidan received chemo last and I'm quite antsy about it. And emotional. I want to keep plugging along. My soul yearns for it. I want things to keep going because the more delays we have, the longer treatment takes (obviously). With no delays we were looking at finishing up chemo in February 2014. Now it's looking more like early Summer 2014 :( and that makes me ache.
Aidan says the word 'chemo' clear as day now. He takes his medicines by himself now. He's losing hair now. His eyebrows have noticeable chunks of hair missing now. He's growing up now. With cancer.
My husband and I recently celebrated our 5th anniversary together (since we met), and it gave us a chance to reflect on all that we've been through. Nothing about our relationship has been easy. It feels as though everything is being thrown our way and it's all trying to tear us apart. We won't let it. We absolutely will not.
I've finally taken the time to get my health in check and am having surgery soon to fix a big problem. I can't wait. My kids need me and this surgery will allow for that. Several people think the timing is incorrect, but to be honest, not time has ever been the right time in the last 3 years. No more waiting.
I'm still clinging to my faith end the promises from God. He is my sustenance. My hope in tomorrow. And my hope in this journey. Thank you God for being omnipotent and omniscient. Thank you.
2 comments:
I admire your courage & faith :)
Our relationship has been similar in that nothing has ever been easy with the exception of our love for each other. Time has never fallen into place for anything for us, not even the conception of our children, lol... (My partner had been transferred out of state, her start date was the same as mine for our IVF, I stayed behind to get pregnant & then joined her. Of course that also meant we moved away from everyone & everything we knew just as we got pregnant with triplets :( ) Anyways, everything always works out in the end when you believe.
I hope your surgery goes smooth & Aidens treatments get back on track so you can wrap up this chapter in your lives & move on to the good stuff!!!
Thank you Spring. I didn't know you were a reader :)
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